My (grand) mother has gone

After more than a month of suffering, my (grand) mother has gone. Slowly, she lost all her strenght. She never lost her great faith in God, and while crying she sometimes stopped to say: "it's beatyful to die, because you go in Jesus' arms". She prayed very much for us, and I think that she's right in Heaven now, right near Jesus' Heart she loved so much.
She kept my family together. The lunches with no less than 15 people every Sunday will probably be only a remembering in a few months.
In her house there was always someone, and the door was always open: most of my time, when not at university, was with her. She grew me up.
I never told her how much I love her, but I think she knew. I was her "disamorato" (not-loving), but I was always with her when I could.
I wonder where I shall go now when I need the loving look she gave me. The emptyness I feel when I enter her house without her is terrible. I looked for her everywhere.
I have done nothing but crying since it happened, at twelve o'clock of March 27th. But I know she's finally well now, after years of suffering for her bad health. But I feel like I'm alone.
She always asked me: "when I'll die, will you say a Requiem aeternam for me?". I always replied: "you'll never die". I was wrong, but I can barely understand it now. If you believe in Jesus, please remember her in your prayers.

Requiem aeternam dona ei, Domine. Et lux perpetua luceat ei. Requiescat in pace. Amen.

Thank you, grandma. I'll never forget you.